Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Leafs vs. Devil

Went to a hockey game tonight. Wow! It's addictive. Now I see why people pay this much money to see a real game. Rob was nice enough to treat me. It's like $187 per tix. Felt a little bad after seeing the price. ;-P

After all great game - leafs won 2-1, so that's good. Went to Bier Market after, interesting hang out place... since at least 2 years ago - I haven't been to the area. I got nostalgic since the Esplanade was where my first agency was. I used to walk to work from Go Station every day 4 years ago.

Now after 2 days at the Blue, I really need to put my snowboarding attitude into practice, when it comes to life situations: when you fall, GET UP! That's what I like about it. Also - poker teaches me life lesson too... you never if you have a bad or good hands until the end. That sums up all :-)

Friday, December 23, 2005

Pre-holiday reflection

So in a week or so will be 2006. I set my year of 2004 as my vacation year. I wanted it to be a breather year so I can refocus the purpose of my life and chill and enjoy.

So what about 2005? I think I gained a lot of new experiences.

• Tried Snowboarding - stilll need tons of practice
• Visited Kyoto, Osaka and Shanghai
• Tried Lavalife
• Joined Dragonboat team
• Won 2 medals first time ever in life
• Tried volleyball
• Did first TV commercial
• Went to to film fest and saw Michel Gondry in person
• Went to 1st time fashion show
• Dated 2 white guys
• Learnt the art of move on quick
• Learnt the great love of self

I am yet to draft up my to-do list for 2006... still have few days to ponder upon.

Friday, December 16, 2005

Thursday, December 08, 2005

I luv Ad Guy

Luv this video. Classic for those who are in advertising.

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

80s Prom. Hot Pot. Rotating sushi table. Santa Baby.

Recollection of last weekend's events...

Went out with Jen to a 80s prom. Quite silly and fun. This band called Fantasy played all 80s music. This reminded me of 80s was such a happy times. To most people, it's their high school, to me it's my childhood. I recognized some songs, coz' I was still in Hong Kong during that time. But definitely fun times.

Hot pot with the grade school gang. It's kinda pack but I guess it's worth it, coz' its' the real thing from HK.

Went to Mochizuki, a Japanese restaurant with rotating sushi table. Grab what you like and pay after. It's kinda cute. Paul and I were trying to stack the plates up to the ceiling. Also tried the really sweet Sake, it's not clear kinda milky white. I don't usually like sake, but the one we had were kinda nice.

Bought a ribbon door bell and a singing tree with high heels that sings "Santa Baby". Now it feels like Christmas in my lilypad.

Friday, November 11, 2005

Amazing Grey-ce. Stella MacCartney for H&M. Clinique basket.

3. Hallowe'en costume
Originally uploaded by Toad Lily.

Thurs Nov 10
Amazing Grey-ce.
Did that with my coworkers at Grey. Denise is our Managing Director of D + I and Steve is the Web Designer. We had SO MUCH FUN!!! That's all I did all day, the shot was taken at a store for the task of dressing in Halloween costume.

Same day was the launch of Stella MacCartney's stuff @ H&M. I got 2 items, but then on 2nd thought, they are not that great. So I returned them.

Nov 11 United Way Auction
Auction is too much fun. I bought the Clinque basket for $220, which so much stuff in it, like lotion, perfume, candle, 3 eye shadow, blush, lipstick, eyeliner, 2 brushes, cleanser...
The total would easily cost over $400. Very happy :-D Auction is addictive.

Sunday, November 06, 2005

The beauty of serenity

Originally uploaded by Toad Lily.

It was a cloudy sunday afternoon, but the stillness of the pond in the Milton conservation area was just so captivating.
I felt so tiny in the vast openess of Mother Nature.

Monday, October 24, 2005

L'oreal Fashion week. CN tower. Milton

Fri Oct 21
Had a really eventful weekend. Went to a fashion show, thanks to my friend Francis, who knows some designers there giving away free invites. I felt so short there with all the models hanging out there. It was really fun and I felt like a celeb to be on the seating area just comment them like those reporters I saw on Fashion TV. After we went to Crush Wine bar on King West and tasted some very fine Fois Gras, um... so good.

Sat Oct 22
On to sat morning, woke up at 5 am and did the CN Tower Stair climb with my friend Paul. It's the first time in my life doing something extreme like this. Pretty crazy. But I am glad I did it. My time was 36 mins. It wasn't very good compared to my friend's time, which is 15 mins! Crazy firefighter.

Sun Oct 23
Day trip in Milton. Paul showed me around of this small town. It's the 2nd time I have been here and I didn't realized Ontario has some very beautiful little hills. With the fall colours, I was so impressed with the scenery there. Too bad I left my camera phone somewhere, I don't have pics to prove it. But the picture kinda stamped in my memory and I might paint a pretty picture of it later.

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

For my own record...

Originally uploaded by Fanis.

Francis and Nance came for free meal.

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

PSP Bubbly Wrap Billboard

PSP Bubbly Wrap Billboard
Originally uploaded by Toad Lily.

Smart and fun. Wish I had the opportunity to do that.

Saturday, September 17, 2005

Medal @ Stratford!

Originally uploaded by Toad Lily.

Wowee wow wow. I slept only 5 hours the night before, had zero expection and energy level. Just wanna have a final race with my fellow team, ended up got medal!! Yohoo! 2 for the year. Awesome.

Thursday, September 15, 2005


Was browsing CorpWatch website and found this link. I was reading this particular article on the massive beautiful resort in Kuwait that is frequently visited and enjoyed by top executives of KBR, a company that was owned by Dick Cheney. Wow, they know how to live life I tell ya. Just the thought of these are the profit earned in sacrifice of the lives of sons and daughters of Americans and Iraqis, make me kinda sick.

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Why we fight?

This is the title of the documentry I saw last night. A really ambitious documentry by Eugene Jarecki. The film title was a title that was used a series of educational films produced by the US govt in the 60s' to talk to the public about why they went into wars. "Why we fight?" was the question that the Director keeps asking. Through interviews of different people, including veterans, government officials of the white house, a dropout student about to go to services, head of organization of Public Intergrity as well as a refugee from Vietname war, to draw an argument of why Americans need to go to wars. It is certainly no sercret to most of us that, the true reason behind the smoke screens of fighting for freedom, is to support the enormous industry of manufacturing weapons and military services at ground zero.

The most interesting point of the movie though, is not the apparent motive, but the speech of the former US president, Dwight Eisenhower. He predicted the consequences of the "military industrial complex" in 1950's. To put this into context, the Sept 11 event is clearly the classic example of the consequences that Eisenhower was referring to, 50 years ago. Watching this film, studying history texts or watching news, doing any of the above just reminds me of how forgettful is human race. When you only focus on your daily lives on a micro point-of-view, you tends to forget the seeds of wrongdoing you planted 20 years ago might end up resulting some castrophrophic incidents.

Another striking part of the film was the interview with the refugee of the Vietname war, Ann Duong. Her identity was captioned as the Muition Specialist in the US gov't lab (scientist for who studies explosives to be used in bombs for wars). As a refugee herself, she was probably glad to start new lives in the States when she was 13, who was thrilled to have the opportunity to get education, to receive a schlorship to go to Ivy League, and handed a well-paid job in the gov't. Yet, to look at the whole thing in a macro scale, she was just in the midst of the cycle of helping the state to make a better war in another countries, which in turn would result in more refugees like herself. This particular story really hits me. It's almost tragic to see as human, we are likely be trapped in our fates.

The theme of what comes around goes around shines through in the story of the Vietnam war veteran, who also the retiree of the NYPD, whose son was killed in Sept 11.

After hearing all these stories from Amercians dissecting the intentions and motives of wars, I can't help but feel deeply empathic to them. They are in a way betrayed by their gov't who exploit their patriotism to support a cunning agenda of the very privleged group of members in the society, who use wars as a banner to fight for freedom, but indeed to support their infinite greeds for personal net worth.

On that note, is military industry the ultimate way to make money? Is profit the ultimate answer? Why can't we think of a better business idea like organic farming or something to do with better energy conservation technology. Throughout the film, I notice the Director interviewed someone from this organization called The Center for Public Intergrity. I did a google search and found out it's an advocacy group that teach us to be more viligent about what are we being fed by the media/press. Further to this line of researching, I found few other sites that service the similiar educational purpose.

Here are the links:

So why they fight? The retiree of the US defense dept. answered it, because no one threw the towel and say "I am not doing it anymore." Most Americans are interwined in the mesh of this military-industrial complex in some way, at all levels, it's almost impossible to just call it quit at the stake of their survival.

Once a little while, in my comfortable world of status quo, it's crucial for me to watch a movie that reminds me of what the world is made of. Keep me consicous of my surroundings and to be interrogative about the landscape of world politics. As it might seems it's not something that should concern me as much. It is, however, everyone's responsbilities to at least be aware of, and alert about, what's really going on.

Jeez, that was an intense Tues evening to watch a movie that will make me ask so many questions. My brain is hurting...

Look at him

Look at him
Originally uploaded by Toad Lily.

Dede really shines as a star in this shot.

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

New friend Lola and Dave Chapelle's Block Party

Originally uploaded by Toad Lily.

Met a new friend and saw a great film fest movie tonight.

Too tired, review to follow.

Also, stopped by Queen W and got a Osho series book, called Joy. I heard of this kinda semi-zen, semi-meditation thing for this group, yet to find out...

Monday, September 05, 2005

New hair cut and Stella McCartney

I had my spiral perm since Jan, my curls are getting uncontrollable. So for the past 2 weeks, I can only wear ponytails as my style and it's time for a change. Went to hair salon to day to get a fix... did a straightening to my hair and had a trim. I look differently (picture to come). This hair reminds me of how I looked in university, I always wear it straight and long. I hope the feedback I get on Tues is not too bad from people...

Was reading magaiznes at Salon and heard that Stella McCartney and Adidas are making a new line. It's totally cool. I always like Chloe and her design, she's definitely on my top ten list for fashion designers. Jeez I really don't need more ideas to spend money.

Thursday, September 01, 2005

Mark Mainguy's film list

This is the list from a director, Mark Mainguy, who I worked with. Here's what he reco me to go to Bay Video to rent them...

Ratcatcher (female director, lynn ramsey)
Ghost Dog
Songs from the second floor (odd film, amazing art direction)
La haine (french b&w urban youth oriented gang film)
City of God (you probably seen it, brazillian, beautiful)
Punch Drunk Love ( you have probably seen that as well)
Vacuuming completely nude in paradise ( british, odd, funny)
Office Space ( american , but quite funny)
The Tripletts of Belleville
Grey Gardens ( documentary, awesome)
Itchi the killer
The Night Porter
The Secret of Roan Inish

David Shirgley

David Shirgley
Originally uploaded by Toad Lily.

Was at the AGO last night, just went becoz' it was free. Saw few exhibitions, nothing really exciting, except the Seth comics collection and the discovery of this really cool artist David Shirgley.

I was looking at the gallery shop and found this little postcard book. It's full of irony and really nasty sarcasm. I was just laughing in tears becoz' it's something so obvious yet no one has the guts to say it. His website got some really cool stuff too.

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

Speaking of films...

I am thinking of my lifetime top ten so far:

1. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
simple idea that everyone who loved and has lost love can relate to, brilliant writing that is flawlessly executed, I really admire the oringinality of the Director's way to portray how past memories work in our brains, they work in the most non-linear way and creep out to catch you in the middle of no-where.
2. Amelie
A feel-good movie that is not preachy, yet warm, imaginative and just pure memorable
3. Old Boy
One of the few truly mind-twisting yet extremely original movie that I could never forget I watched it, beautifully art directed.
4. A.I.
I actually cried when I saw it, there's something about this movie which touches on the selfishness of human made me think...
5. Memento
A play of time and space that makes you want to just watch it again and again to figure how did he do it.
6. American Beauty
Dark and ironic yet true - like life. Same guy who does "Six Feet Under" - Alan Ball.
7. Pulp Fiction
No need to explain just cool and unforgettable.
8. Spring, Summer, Fall, Winter and Spring
A very zen and meditative movie that got me thinking the cycles of life.
9. Chung King Express
The best of Kar-Wai Wong in my personal opinion.
10. Before Sunset/Sunrise
I never thought of a movie could only be made of 1 conversation from start to finish yet, I didn't get bored of it.
The conversation was so deep and intriguing that if that happens to me I would fall in love with that person 100%.
11. Bitter Moon
It's not the most well-executed movie in terms of art direction, production budget etc, yet the story depicts the simple idea of how when love ends, the extreme of jealousy takes over and vice versa. Just very powerful movie that makes me think.
12. Punch Drunk Love
Adam Sandler was so cool in it. It's alternative love story that is equally sweet but not in the formula of the typical Hollywood movies.

TV work is awesome!

The past week was quite an adventure for me, as I was at my first ever TV production. We were on-location at a house near the Bayview and York Mills areas. Quite a nice house. At the set, I have the chance to see how the Director work with the actors and actresses. It's quite an experience. And just so many factors come into play, like the use of camera angles, lighting, the acting etc... The shoot itself is simple yet to get the perfect take, it takes time and lot of energy to get the best composed frame and acting.

On the next day for the rushes, the Director Mark, he invited us to a really cool spot called The Spoke Club. It is hidden in the building where the Amsterdam Brewing Co. is located. Great food, great conversation. I also admire the fact that Directors have the passion and visions to produce great movies and commercials. It takes a lot of talents and tenacity to make to that level. And just this experience that I was involved in the TV made me wonder how would it be like to be a Director. It's probably a crazy day dream of me... but if I ever could do a movie, I want to do something like Michael Moore, whose works would say something to challenge how people think.

On that same note, I was browsing the film fest lineup, I found this movie called "Workingman's Deaths" by Michael Glawogger, very interesting. It's about some of the most dangerous labour work you could ever imagined, which you would think they would be replaced by machines, given we have evolved so much technologically. Yet, the reality is, some people are still risking their lives by just making a living everyday. I am still yet to watch this film, but just looking at the description, I can imagine it's one of those movies that would make me appreciate more about what I already have and truly be gracious and not critical about my status quo.

Fancy wedding

Ice sculpture with Martini passed through
Originally uploaded by Toad Lily.

Was at Dagmar's wedding last sunday. It's the most extravagant wedding I have ever been to. This ice sculpture is one of the many cool things to wow the guests there, the other stuff would include oyster bar, chocolate fountain, polish dancers and a 8-course dinner. I was stuffed for the next 3 days and could still remember the taste of the 3 martinis I had. Well, of course I will remember that's my friend's wedding as well. (phew...)

Thursday, August 25, 2005

5 Doors North

What a neat little cozy restaurant... we went there for Matt's go away sort-of. I had lamb chops (what else, when it's on the menu) it's so nice to go out in the middle of the week and a nice dinner makes the week seems shorter. Seeing people leave makes me sad. :-(

Little dark cloud would be above my head for a while.

Monday, August 15, 2005


Another note on food...
Had an awesome night @ Lobby. I have always thought it's cool spot for lounging and drinks, yet its menu for dinner was AMAZING!! I had the best corn chowder and seared tunas ever. Coupled with some white wine from Chile, that was an awesome awesome night. Thanks for a very generous anonymous patron's support for the night! :-)

The Motorcycle Diaries and Chocolate Souffle

Originally uploaded by Toad Lily.

Watched "The Motorcyle Diaries", quite an interesting story, I didn't realized it's about a real-life story of the Cuban leader Che Guevara. The idea of "let the world change you and then you change the world" is powerful. This idea got me thinking about the possibility of the new and improved self could be beneficial to the world some day.

On a totally unrelated subject, I had the best chocolate souffle ever at MBCo. My new to-cook list would include making this heavenly invention at home. um...

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Photo of the day

PHSH '05
Originally uploaded by Claudine.

Hello is anyone there...

I was biting my first-time ever medal...

My face was twisted
Originally uploaded by Toad Lily.

in Montreal Dragonboat Fest. Kudos to my fellow teammates!

Tuesday, August 09, 2005


Went to my Truffles the restaurant @ 4 Seasons today. It's a place I always wanted to go and to die for... turn out, not the best, but didn't knocked my socks either. Did have amazing conversation with Cindy though. A boyless date at a great restaurant with good food, wine and ambience is all I can ask for for a perfect, summer Tuesday night.

um the taste of the gapachzo still kinda lingers... susur is the next on my gourmet scouting checklist.

Sunday, July 17, 2005

Dragonboat season finale

Originally uploaded by Toad Lily.

A great season concluded with lots of laughter and new experience. All girls from the team @ the buffet @ mandarin.

Monday, June 06, 2005

Open bar was brilliant!

the girls @ company party
Originally uploaded by Toad Lily.

Look how happy and harmious we were as happy Grey employees when Open Bar was introduced.

Thursday, May 26, 2005

This is how I feel today :-D

Rainbow Windmill
Originally uploaded by Beezy..
Nice weather lightens everything up ...

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

The Wise One

The Wise One
Originally uploaded by Beezy..
Guess what I found...?
These are so cute!!! I m going to ask my Star War fans to have a look :-)

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

Public Art?

Originally uploaded by Toad Lily.
Check out what law students at Yale did to their campus. Free advertising or public art? You decide.

Monday, May 09, 2005

Finally made it to the water...

Started my 1st dragonboat practice last sat. It was a whole lot of fun. Looking back 1 year ago, I could never imagine myself to be doing this. It's magical that dragonboat truly is a team thing, when all paddles hit the water at the same time, the boat just flys! It amazes me as it's so different from rowing. Last night before I went to bed, deep in my heart I felt so grateful that in the past year I have met so many great new friends and people. Everyone has been extremely nice and supportive to me. Those people probably have no idea what they have done to help this girl to find herself again. But I thank them with my greatest sincerity. I would like dragonboat to be only the 1 of many new things I will keep tackling on in 2005.

Friday, May 06, 2005

Nice quote saw it somewhere...

... only time can determine your best friends from the acquaintances and we will all come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

~ anonymous

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

Back to realities...

After spending 18 days in 5 cities (Hong Kong, Tokyo, Kyoto, Osaka and Shanghai), it's time for realities to kick in. Some of the pics of the tour is posted here Enjoy!
Poor deer
A deer was wandering in front of a food stand of a temple in Osaka.
Yep, I thought he looked silly too. Poor guy.

Sunday, March 13, 2005

When insomnia kicks in ...

Can't sleep tonight, staying at my parent's house, it's 3 in the morning. Can't be more somber than ever. Not worrying, not upset by anything, I guess I blame the black tea of the Chinese restaurant.

On a saturday night, around this time, I could easily be half drunk, being hammered by post-drunk headaches and in deep dream-less sleep, with shoes still on my feet.

Or I would be tired from a week's errands, work, chores, mundane daily routines and felt into light sleep of dreaming weird things that I don't remember the next morning.

But not tonight. It's a sleepless night tonight.

I could remember on a insominiac night like this, I would be scribbling my notepad with to-dos and ideas for projects. Some of those on my list would be my own website, a painting about the scene outside my window, my headboard, my unfinished piece of jewellry... so on, so forth.

Yet tonight, with Coralie Clement's voice singing softly in the background, I am thinking... Is it a blessing to not have anyone to worry, to miss? Or is it a shame? Would I be the subject of the wandering mind of someone who's also awake in the middle of the night?

I wonder.

Without sounding like Carrie in Sex in the City pondering about relationships, it always hard for an individual to take a position in relationship. When you are single, you long for meeting someone. When you are with someone, you wonder will it last. There's always worries and concerns on the back of your mind. In the game of finding luv, I especially like one of her quotes, "some people are settling down, some people are settling, some people never settles for anything less." Is "settling down" settling in some way? With limited supply of subject of affection, is it even possible to not to settle anything for less? Is there such thing as "the one"?

I wonder.

At 3:21 am, it's starless and quiet in the sky of Markham.

Saturday, March 12, 2005

A beautiful quote to share...

I read this from someone's blog here... it's so well written that I have to put it up here...

"After a while, you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul, And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't mean security. And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises, And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child. And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So plan your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure... That you really are strong. And that you really do have worth."

-Veronica A. Shoffehall

Thursday, March 10, 2005

Dailysonic: A Free MP3zine

As every mundane work day would entail... what a nice surprise today I found this A Free MP3zine. Everyday, there's a new episode you can download. I never thought of magazine could be "heard" instead of "read". The articles of the magazine are clips of music, interesting stories, news or views be read out aloud for you. When you are sick of all the MP3 you download frome Limewire or Napster. Try Dailysonic.

Thursday, February 17, 2005

My favourite links...

Gives you daily to-do, sales...

Pointers to the best clubs/lounges/parties

Pointers to the best clubs

Reviews on movies and celebs

Count down to vacation...

It's only 30 more days away I will leave the cold and be surrounded by cheery blossom. What else could be better than travel 100,000 miles away, leave your rountine and discover something new and exciting. No wonder people always say vacation is the biggest motivation to live the daily rountine. I wonder how the weather in Tokyo and Osaka would be like...? It's been at least 13 years that I have visited Tokyo - it must has changed so much, I can't wait to see it again. :-D